& here i am! Not really a lot of updates but... Im starting to feel some type of way about a few things... I dont mean to sound dramatic or whateva... But maybe I really have lost my mind. Im starting to look at life in a negative way, no matter how hard I try to fight it... People are horrible. I dont exclude myself when I say that, but people are really bad... its like maybe when you get old and realize that you got a chance to do all the bad stuff when you were younger, you start to get bored.... and without even thinking about it, you become better. I just feel that nobody really gets me, like I dont even understand how i think sometimes. Ive been having flashbacks like crazy, and trying to decide if I need help... or am I just slowly losing more of my mind with each passing day. My parents have completely given up on me, and it really sucks... I feel like everyone around me sees me as the cute and cuddly (and kind of ditzy) chey, but nobody takes me seriously. I s...
So I am again ashamed at the fact that I have not posted anything ALL DAY! I should be on like blog punishment right? Well, here's why dudes and dudettes: I'm sure lots of you know that finals are coming( whether in college or high school ) and well I happen to be taking drama 3 this year. So, my final for drama is 2 memorized monologues and a song( I chose to do a song, go me! ) and I've been trying to practice all weekend, but things kept distracting me!! ( as you can recall I went swimming yesterday, damn pool ) and I am proud to say I have one monologue complete!! Oh did I mention it's due on Tuesday ......
Whats up guys!! So, yes I know its been a couple of days since I've posted - (please forgive me) I recently had an epiphany after having my first miscarriage right... I was hit with the fact that I was going to be responsible for a whole person - no, chey, just an arm lol (bad pun) I really had to take a look at my life, and I realized that I had accomplished absolutely nothing in all of my 22 years. I didn't want this new life to be raised off of government funds, I wanted my child to be proud of me, and have access to anything and everything that they wanted. I wanted to be able to really provide for my child so that they will go after what they want and not what people suggest they should do. I know that feeling, and my mother worked very hard to give me a life that not every kid gets a chance at. I never had to experience hunger, I always had what I wanted even when I clearly didn't deserve it. The bad experiences I went through were because I strayed from the the...
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