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This post is just letting y'all know where im at, Im like around, ya know, like im here but half the time im really not, ive been trying to stay sane and myself by mixing my ideas with reality, I sound crazy no? I should care but I dont, Im literally at the same fucking head space, I dont want to be around anyone, because I dont trust anyone, I just think of the worst happening in every scenario, but i feel like im being realistic and preparing myself because sooner or later the worse happens, might not happen today, or in 6 months from now.... but believe me, it happens! Someone brought up my last baby the other day..... I think about the situation often. See I dont think my boyfriend was really bothered by it, by I had never went through that before. If i could have one wish it would be for another chance. Id also wish for a home. Ive realized recently that Ive never had one of those..... a home where I was actually looking forward to coming back to. A home where I could find...

& here i am! Not really a lot of updates but... Im starting to feel some type of way about a few things... I dont mean to sound dramatic or whateva... But maybe I really have lost my mind. Im starting to look at life in a negative way, no matter how hard I try to fight it... People are horrible. I dont exclude myself when I say that, but people are really bad... its like maybe when you get old and realize that you got a chance to do all the bad stuff when you were younger, you start to get bored.... and without even thinking about it, you become better. I just feel that nobody really gets me, like I dont even understand how i think sometimes. Ive been having flashbacks like crazy, and trying to decide if I need help... or am I just slowly losing more of my mind with each passing day. My parents have completely given up on me, and it really sucks... I feel like everyone around me sees me as the cute and cuddly (and kind of ditzy) chey, but nobody takes me seriously. I s...

Whats up guys!! So, yes I know its been a couple of days since I've posted - (please forgive me) I recently had an epiphany after having my first miscarriage right... I was hit with the fact that I was going to be responsible for a whole person - no, chey, just an arm lol (bad pun) I really had to take a look at my life, and I realized that I had accomplished absolutely nothing in all of my 22 years. I didn't want this new life to be raised off of government funds, I wanted my child to be proud of me, and have access to anything and everything that they wanted. I wanted to be able to really provide for my child so that they will go after what they want and not what people suggest they should do. I know that feeling, and my mother worked very hard to give me a life that not every kid gets a chance at. I never had to experience hunger, I always had what I wanted even when I clearly didn't deserve it. The bad experiences I went through were because I strayed from the the...

Hey guys its CheyS, recently I've been in a dark place mentally and physically, which is why it took me awhile to post.... so many things have happened that ive kept quiet about and it really sucks, theres really nobody I can turn to that has good intentions for me, my family is there but they dont understand and im pretty sure all of them have lost hope in me, im 22 and have accomplished nothing in the last 4 years (when i graduated high school) Love? I love the man im with but i feel like ive overstayed my welcome.... I feel like im annoying because i want to be around all the time. Being with him had made me feel normal for some strange reason, but now i feel like a burden... So, ive come to the conclusion that I need to just be alone If im alone, nobody will be worried about me, i won't be clingy to anyone, i won't be used by anyone. I just dont know whats wrong with me. I really do hate myself sometimes.... all the time.... Ive been this way since my bi...

HEY Y'ALL (miley cyrus voice) So, I wanted to take this time to reach all my foodies and diabetics out there! - Type 1 over here!! I have a problem with snacking and have a habit of running to junk - chips, and other salty morsels. Of course the doctors tell you to stay away from the unnecessary carbs... However, 💣 I wasn't to keen to run to the salads, cheese and slices of sandwich meat (no carbs, or very little) I do like mushrooms though, and even though they make me smell all day.... I FUCKING LOVE ONIONS!! - this is not a joking matter. I literally order extra onions on every burger I eat. One time I experimented and ate funyuns with guacamole... (they are a form of onion right?😯) Anyways... So, its not a new food I invented or anything... I'm no chef boyardee. It is a good snack, I wanted to share because it was something I found that I liked and it helps me control my blood sugars. Why not kill two birds with one stone? - NO ANIMALS WERE HARMED I...