WithUiamInfinite

Hey guys its CheyS, recently I've been in a dark place mentally and physically, which is why it took me awhile to post.... so many things have happened that ive kept quiet about and it really sucks, theres really nobody I can turn to that has good intentions for me, my family is there but they dont understand and im pretty sure all of them have lost hope in me, im 22 and have accomplished nothing in the last 4 years (when i graduated high school) Love? I love the man im with but i feel like ive overstayed my welcome.... I feel like im annoying because i want to be around all the time. Being with him had made me feel normal for some strange reason, but now i feel like a burden... So, ive come to the conclusion that I need to just be alone If im alone, nobody will be worried about me, i won't be clingy to anyone, i won't be used by anyone. I just dont know whats wrong with me. I really do hate myself sometimes.... all the time.... Ive been this way since my bi...

So for some strange reason, Ive been dying to be by myself Like I hate, when Im alone with nothing to do... but when Im around people they all make me feel inferior to them... Like no, i haven't finished a degree a yet and ive started like 6 different schools no i dont have a job and have stopped the search for one no i can't drive and im 22 I dont care about those things anymore though because I realized I wasn't doing those things for me I was doing them because people said i should and i wanted someone to tell me i was doing something right... Im content with being absolutely nothing right now. one thing i did start doing again is my gages... their blue (fav) i guess im trying to look older, tired of people confusing my boyfriend as my dad or brother,